Nung Tuesday, nkausap din kmi nung tropa ko. Parang confession sa teacher. We told our teacher everything. Then nung Thursday, kinausap ulet kaming 3. about certain things, pag drink ng liquor, our new boy buds, the tropa itself and auen dami pa.. honestly, I’m kinda scared for what will happen to us. I’m hoping that wala naming mabigat na consequences for us. I’m trying to get back the real “Em”. Pero I dunno yet, ako toh eh.. gusto ko lang mabalik ung dating good attitudes ko. So un.. 2 weeks vacation na kami.. but there’s too many projects and homeworks that our teacher left us. We are planning a swimming on Monday coz it’s Elaine’s birthday. Sna makahanap na sila ng pool ngaun! Can’t wait!
Happy Birthday!
oct.1- ate Greyz
oct.14- kuya owen
oct.20- charisma
oct.25- kuya peewee
oct.31- Elaine
Happy days
oct.08 and 18- happy day ko!
oct.19- me and joan.
oct.24-me and aimee >1 month na kami..wag green ang utak! =P
oct.30-me and joan>2 months n kami.. wag ulet green ang utak!=P<
We visited my grandfather at the cemetery kxe sa nov.1 sa lolo ko sa motherside naman kami.. I simply miss them alot!
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Friday, October 28, 2005
Life is a very precious gift from God. It should be treasured and we should live it to the fullest. But come to think of it, are we ready to cross that bar? What do I want to do before I die? How do I want to be remembered?
When I was younger, I don’t want to talk about death. Honestly, I’m afraid to die. Maybe because I don’t want my family and friends to be sad when I’m gone. And there’s a big question n my mind- When I go, will I meet my creator? Well, I hope so. So I want to change my bad attitudes and do more good things!
Before I cross the bar I want to do all the things that I wanna do. I want my dreams to be fulfilled. I want to have a happy family. I also want to help my parents. I want to make a difference to the people around me. I want to be remembered as a girl who once touches the lives of the people around her. I also want to be remembered in a nice and positive way.
Before I cross that bar, I wont regret any past or memories in my life because I know that everything happened in our life has a reason and has a lesson to learn. Be ready to cross the bar.-- em
I'm not that good..haha.. Here’s another version. This was made by my friend, Corrine. I was touched when I read this. So here it goes:
“Live your life as if it is your last” was a quotation I heard once but never did I forget. It tells me something which makes me stop and think, I hear it a hundred times a day the effect does not fade. Maybe it’s because the quotation has really strike me so hard.
What if I die tomorrow? What if I don’t have time left? How would I die? Would it hurt so much? Would it be bloody? Or as simple as not waking up the next day? These are the questions that bothered me and still bothering me since I’ve heard that quotation.
Death is something everyone cannot avoid. It is something that comes even on your happiest hour; and takes away the most precious thing which you do not value much until you are about to cross the line. It is something that comes and undergoes unexpectedly and sometimes horribly.
No one could beat death, every tiny bit of living things are to fade and die. I am afraid of death; in fact everybody is! The thought of death gives me a creepy felling of how would death take me.
I am an unhealthy person; and being weak and somewhat unable to do everything, kind of hurt me physically and emotionally. Emotionally because I am always on the corner, being set aside and not being able to play and do whatever I like; physically because they always injects me with antidotes, something that would make me calm, something that could energize me and they always collect and test my blood and make me drink a hundred of “big” medicinal tablets. How to die shouldn’t be new to me.
You see, living weak hurts. What more if I am to die? But as days pass, I somehow got used to it. Those things keep me alive! Whenever I think of the injections and blood, it makes me realize something that dying is not the end but the beginning of a new journey.
But still my fear does not subside; the thought of death still makes me sad and cry. I love living, being with my friends and love one’s just makes me feel loved and important; they call me “lola, puppi, sugar, hearty, bebe, jayson, kitty, etc” they’re always right there beside me, concerned and they reprimand me most of the time that was because I am sort of mischievous and I don’t follow the do’s and don’ts ordered by the doctor.
I’m getting attached to them and to this world that makes me wanna stay and refuse to cross the bar. But, what can I do? I’m just a human being who’s to die someday. And if ever I arrive on the day that I should step across the line, I shall have the heaviest feet a man could ever have. For it is a fact that to be left and stay is harder than to go; it is but a burden to make the ones I love and who loves me back, cry.
And now, I’m still breathing, I only have one choice that is “to live my day as if it is my last” -- Corrine
I’m her sugar! That made my eyes teary and that made me love her very much.
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
Nag pnta sa skul nmin ung Red Cross para macheck kung ano ung bllod type namin.. So un.. I found out that "O" ung blood type ko.. Tpos sa buong 3rd yr (2 sections na un so we're 64 in all) 4 lang ung AB smin..
Lapit na din kmi mwalan ng psok.. Oct. 28 ata wala na kmi pasok.. well hopefully! Then classes will resume on the 8th day of November. Kainis lang kze tambak nman kmi ng projects! kainis sobra!.. Instead nag rerelax kmi, eh hindi eh.. Nggwa tlga ng projects!
Yesterday(Oct.15) we went to Elaine's house to practice our doxology for our C.L.E class.. Ndun pla cLa Rm,ChiLLi, and ung bro ni Anthony..c Jm.. 3 kaming M! (rM, jM, eM..lols..) Ang galing mag gguitar ni Jm! Astig grabe pero drummer tlga xa ike me.. May band din kze xa..
Last Sunday(oct.9) nagcmba kmi sa Calamba church with elaine, Erika, Cheloy, Jaime (frend ni Tons),Antony and c Chilly.. Then nagpnta kmi sa Aplaya.. sumakay kMi sa bangka.. It was so fun! Kkatuwa nga c Jaime kxe ginagalaw nila elaine and che ung bangka.. tkot tlga c Jaime! And ngpnta kmi nila Che and Anthony sdito sa bahay.. nag heart to heart kami ni Tons. Sbi nya crushie nya kmi ng sis ko.. (*cross fingers* sana totoo kxe crush ko nga xa!) Kung magkaka gf daw xa sna tulad nmin ng sis ko hindi immature. Gusto n nyang mgkaron ng gf, ng relationship na serios.. may nahanap na xa.. c cheloi ksa iba gusto ni che.. C chilly.. Nameet ko na din cla nikki and carl that day..
I received the test results.. Luckily ok naman grades ko.. sa History lang hindi.. Yikes kahiya.. Dmi nmin nakakuha ng low score.. Badtrip tlga..
2:19 PM
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Saturday, October 08, 2005
I'm actually not ok.. I don't feel well. Second.. Corrine, my friend, and I are not ok.. Medyo may tampuhan kaSi.. Honestly di ko din xa matiis! Di ko kayang di xa pansinin! Eh medyo matigas kze xa..Ung tipong pag glit ka sknya pwede rin xang mgalit seo! So I'm planning to talk to her later. Hopefully it'll be ok! Nagkatampuhan nga din kami ni Joan pero we're ok na! May sinabi kaSi cla na di ko ngustuhan.For them mababaw pero iba ung effect sken! Joan and Christian Grace just went here. Kaaalis lang niLa ngaun! Thanks to Aimee, kund di dhil sknya di pa kmi magbabati. Ayaw kasi nya na may kagalit ako!
I'm planning to change the skin medyo mtagal na ksi 'to eh! Wala pa lang talaga akong makitang maganda ulet..
