When I woke up at 9am, I texted Aleck. Asking if how is he doin? If he's alright na. Nkatulog ulit ako. Nun gncng nko ni momi, wala pden xang text. =( I felt sad. Punta kami ni momi sa festival. Hanap ng golf shoes ni dadi. Nsa van pa lang kme ni momi, I checked my fone, I got 2 missed calls and 7 text messages from only 1 person -- Aleckcys. He wanted me to call him. Tpos sbi dun sa isang text kailangan n nyang umuwi (ngayon, 04.28.06 at 3:15am) kxe gawa nung papa nya. Ktabi ko c momi sa van, sobrang gusto ko ng humagulgolng iyak. He's leaving again. 1 week p lng xang nand2, alis na uLet xa. I can't blame him! Health n ng papa nya ung nakasalalay dun. No choice but to accept it. Accept the fact that he will go back to China, that he'll be leaving me again. Can't stop crying! Sbi ko text ko xa later kxe naiiyak tLga ako, ksama ko p nmn c momi.
Sobrang hirap xken nun. Nagccmula pa lng ung relationship nmin, tpos aalis agad xa. (Right this very moment, naiiyak na naman ako! I don't wanna cry na! =( Namamaga na eyes kO!) After we ate our dinner, while watching PBB teen ed, Aleck texted me.. I called him na. I heard his sweet voice again. Un voice na hindi ko alam kung kailan ko uLet maririnig. Habang nag uusap kami, sobrang iyak na talaga ako. Hindi ko mapigil.
AFter nun, text2 kami. Iyak na naman ako. He asked me if nahihirapan b daw ako kxe lagi daw xa naalis. Sbi ko,"Mhal kita eh, kaya kahit mahirap, kakayanin ko." Wala daw iwanan, walang mgbbgo. Lahat lahat na.
Hirap umasa, pero kakayanin ko. Mahal ko un tao eh. Ngaun ko lang toh naramdaman. Don't want to loose him! I love him soooo much!
That's my song for Aleck. Sobrang nakakarelate talaga ako dun sa song na un. Kxe I never expected na maffall ako sknya.Cuzin lang xa nung not so close friend ko. C Alei na text2 lang nung una. Hai. I never felt this feeling before. Medyo mahirap pa ung situation namen kxe he might go back to China to study there. Gusto nga kxe ng papa nya na dun xa. Sobrang nngaun ko lang toh nafeel. I love him so much. I don't wanna loose him!
Aleckcys is back! He went to China w/o telling me na aalis na pala xa. Biglaan din un pag alis nya kxe na stroke daw ung dad nia. I cried buckets of tears then *ahaha*. Lalo na nung nakatext ko un cuzin nya, si Alei. That night, naging baby nmen xa. Kxe she wanted us to be her "parents" daw. So un na nga. Sobrang ang dami kong nalaman ky Alei about sa feelings ni Aleck saken. Un mga time na un kxe may bf ako nun.. (si Mark) and medyo nagkakalabuan na kami nun. Pero xempre ayokong mang 2 time! Keia iniiwasan kong ma-fall in love ky Aleck. How did our story start?! Well, here it goes:
*waaaaaah* I'm hating this! Hindi ako makapag spend ng summer ng hindi nabbore! I'm always here in my cribs. I'll take UPCAT review nga, sa May pa nga lang ung simula. Ang masama nito, hindi pa ko nagpapareg. Kasi naman ung mga kasama ko parang waLa lang skanila. Nakakasawa din namang mag soundtrip mag hapon, magtext, mag watch ng tv. Pag nag nnet naman ako, sa madaling araw pa 12 midnight tiL 3-5am na. Tapos text-text kami ni Rap, tapos tulog na. Tanghalian na ko nagigicng! Pag hindi n tLga kinaya, matutulog ng hapon. I'm so hating this na! Busy kxe tropa ko.. May nag ssummer job kuNo. Waaaah grabe na tOh!
It's already ApriL. I can really feeL tHe summer! nauna n nga lang ung swimming ng tRopa... haiii... I miss my tROpa! Oh and yeah.. I got a new layout! I think it's kinda ok namn... =P I'm still fixing it though... Camwhoring stikes again! *eviL grin* I have lotsa new pics.. I'm still not uploading it in my photobucket. I'm gonna post it next tiMe. I already uploaded some pics in my friendster (first account). It's already April o5! >> It's Corrine's 16th birthday! She invited us nga pla.. Punta kme sa house niLa mmya.. Maybe iL update this uLet later...
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
by Craig David
Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and you changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
[Chorus]
When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
[Chorus]
Now I see, what love means
One week na pala kami. In that 1 week, meron na din kaming tampuhan. I don't know. It's really natural. I'm being emotional when it comes to him na. Everytime na maglalambingan kami, read ko lang text nya napapaluha na ko. Sa sobrang sweet nya siguro. He's still in the hosptal. May sakit kxe xa nde n nya kinaya. Monday night wala daw xang kasama and may sakit pden xa. That night sobrang naaawa na ko xkanya. He was like Baby, nde ko na kaya. I need u here. NaStuck up na naman akO! My tears fell. I wish i could be there, by his side, taking care of him. Tpos dumating daw un mom nya nagpadala n xa sa hospital. Yesterday naman sobrang iyak nko, mixed emotions. Sbhan ng manloloko ng x? Nde din ngttext c Aleck. Un daw kxe he's restin.
-Baby, tell ur suitors na taken kna ha..nd closo asawa moh.. gs2 ko aken k lng.. 04.20.06
-Opoh..saung sau lng aq..iL tel evrybody nah.. i olredi hav my baby_em!..nd i love her so much!! dat i wont allowanyone 2 tke her away from me!.. 04.20.06
-i will never leave u..hold on tyt.. promise to stay forever by ur side 04.20.06 (baka kxe umalis uLet xa. Study xa sa China. Ndun kxe dadi nya. Gusto xa dun magstudy.) =C
Happy 18th Birthday to Ate Jho.
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
One night someone texted me. Kay Alei ung name tpos parang wrong sent. (mtagal ko ng katext c Alei, btw..) Nde talaga pra sken un msg. So I sent back the text to Alei and cnbi ko wrong sent xa. Tapos nagpakilala xa na tito daw ni Alei. Pero cuzins talaga siLa. (Ewan! Un gusto nilang tawagan eh.) Nagkwento xa sken. Na kakabreak lang daw niLa nung gf nia na si Mitchie and ayaw na nung gurL na mging cla uLet. So un.. Comforter na naman ako ng heartbroken na tao. Which is madalas kong ginagawa sa mga friends ko. Auen, we bacame close. Ewan.. nafall na ata sken. Nagtagal, he wanted me to be his girL. Eh I'm in a relationship din nun na nagkakalabuan pero sbi ko xknya na nde pwede. He's so sweet. Makalaglag undies un mga cnsbi nya.*lol*
I would be the luckiest man in d whole world
if I can make u mine.."Damn! See, ang sweet nya talaga. Then one Sunday, sabi nia pnta xa ng church. Tpos ngtext n lng xa sken na he met an accident. May jeep na naka-hit sa car nia. Tpos un a week ata xa sa hospital tpos parang nag ppaalam n xa sken na he might go back to China para dun mag study. Tpos nag karon ng time na sobrang nag ddoubt ako skanya. Na baka another player na naman toh, another tripper? Keia I got scared. Meron din time na nagagalit ako sknya kxe aalis nga xa. Hanggang dumating ung time na wala n nga talga xa. Alei txted me about it. Na nastroke nga daw un dad ni Aleck and talagang klangan nilang umuwi agad sa China. (Half Chinese nga pla si Aleck.) Auen.. Alei comforted me while Aleck went to China. Naiyak talaga ako dun sa mga nalaman ko. I realized na I'm falling for him na din. Pati quotes na may nagsesend sken na tinatmaan talaga ako, napapaiyak din ako. Pati ung cnbi ni Alei na ndun daw c Mitchie kiLa Aleck and parang nakikipagbalikan n ung gurl. Sobrang nag-sis talga ako kung bkit k pa xa pnkawalan. Naicp ko din n bka maging cla ulet and everything.
Knina nga, pag gising ko nung hapon Nkita ko n dming text na. Pag kita ko may lang. Bnsa ko agad. Pagkita ko si Aleckcys daw xa. OMG! I texted him nung nbasa ko un msg nia. He said n kakabalik nya nga lang. Tpos sbi nia "nkabalik na ko't lahat nde mo pa ba ako ssgutin?" I replied, "dba keo na uLet?" He answered, "Alam mo na pla.. got to go muna.. Love u." Eeeek?! love u daw og!? Nlabuan ako! Tpos un txt txt pren kme tpos tampo n daw xa kxe di daw ako ng lolove u back. And kung pde pba daw kami? So sbi ko, "bakit pa? dba keo n nga uLet??" he said, "May aaminin ako seo" tpos sbi nya nga na hindi daw cla ni Mitchie talaga. Sobrang naiyak na naman ako! I was like "Damn, ano ba talga?! gulong gulo nko! Trip lang ba toh or what?? I hate this!" Auen, text text pran kung ano ba talaga. Sbi nia na gusto niang mging sknya nko. Tpos un.. Hanggang sa sinabi ko n lng na "Seo nko!" Ahaha.. So auen n nga! Hai.. Sna totoo na tOh! Amf talaga. Wahaha.
Sana maging magandang start na toh! =)
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Some of my pics taken last week. Bored din ako ng mga time na yan. Vanity..lol. Click the image to enlarge.
Yeah, I wear glasses talaga.. Nearsighted ako eh. I only wear 'em pag kailangan lalo sa school.
Sayang, ang labo ng pics!
amfUfu..pacHut eh! nyahahaha..waLa mgawa eh
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Like I said-- I'M stiLL fixing my bLog! NagddoubLe eh! Aszar! Antok n kxe akO! Aaucn ko pa.. Walang reklamo aH... lol =P I'm still searching for songs.
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Punta ko house nila Corrine! I missed my friends din. Nameet ko c Sam(kuno).. I mean si Roel. Hangkyut nya! Sarap kasama. Kahit nun ko p lng xa nksama nung gabi text2 na agad tpos open xa! Ahaha. Khuletz nia! Baka nga pla mag UPCAT Review ako! nyahaha.. May ksama n kxe ako eh. Mag iinquire pko. TTwag pko sa Don Bosco.. Dun kxe ung place eh.
